Holding Back… What am I so afraid of?!

Here I sit…

 

Once again on the edge of a precipice

 

And I am finding that there is the thing…

This thing called fear…

 

And it’s holding me back

 

It’s real, but yet again it’s not

 

False evidence appearing real!!!

 

And I’m so very sick of it!

 

Hate might not be too strong of a word…

 

It has governed my actions for far too long.

 

Sick and tired of being sick and tired, the fire in my heart is rising up. I want so badly to do more than survive… I want to truly live and thrive. I want to live courageously and like the heroes in the stories I love, I want to slay the dragon!

 

You see I’ve been realizing that my own faith in Christ is weak. Under trial I have found myself lacking.

 

But you see there’s a trap here. Especially as a man.

 

I want to fix things. I want to go solo. I want to go it alone…

 

And that is where we all fail isn’t it?!

 

We cannot do these things without Christ! We can’t. It’s not possible… though I tell you, Satan will try and convince you that you can.

 

The scripture says that I (we) can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (us).

 

Don’t try and go it alone. You will fail. And we weren’t meant to anyway. Christ said that “My yoke is easy and my burden is light.” We are supposed to work in tandem with Christ… together!!

 

The days are dark… I can’t candy coat it. We live in perilous times. We live in a time when the truth and the lies are mixing together in ways that I could never have believed in my wildest imagination.

 

There is no way t navigate these days and the deceptions that are growing every day… without a connection to the Way, the Truth, and the Life that is Jesus.

 

Back to it… my fear…

I have this overwhelming desire to speak… not for myself mind you… but for those who are lost

 

I want to offer perspective… to offer clarity… to point the lost and questioning

 

To the only answer… Jesus.

 

There is no way to overcome all that this world is screaming at us collectively without a vital connection to God through the salvation that is offered to us through Christ and his death on the cross of Calvary over 2,000 years ago.

 

No other religion, way of thinking, system, organization, political ideology will ever get you there.

 

Jesus said that he is the only way to God

 

And you must deal with that. We all must deal with that.

 

Jesus was either a liar, a lunatic, or… he was/is exactly who he claims to be. The Son of God…

 

Our Lord and Savior.

 

Though I have failed innumerable times in my life, I declare to you that Jesus is my Lord & Savior. He is the one and only Son of God. His is the Alpha & the Omega…

 

And though I am weak… He is, as he promises, Strong.

 

I can depend on Him and so can you.

 

I am letting you know that I believe that our time here on Earth, as the church, is growing very short.

 

Persecutions are growing exponentially every day all over this world and people in general are no longer able to reason.

 

Anger, dissension, laziness, division, anarchy, rebelliousness, selfishness, sexual perversion, murderous violence… these are the signs of our age and the endgame of humanity.

 

We should not be surprised by it all… scripture says that these will be signs of the end of days.

 

But we should not despair. We should not live as those with no hope.

 

Instead, we must shine the light of Christ all the brighter. We must commit to stand strong. We must commit to stand in faith. We must commit to lives of purity.

 

We need to anchor our hearts to Christ… spending time in His Word, the Bible. Spending time in focused prayer that seeks to crash the gates of Hell and Death.

 

We must remember we are in a battle, and we are all expected to fight the good fight, putting on the full armor of God.

 

Don’t be fooled anymore. Ask for God to open your spiritual eyes and to grant you the gift of the Holy Spirit so that you can be fully aware of the battles going on all around you.

 

Jesus already won the battle for your heart on the cross, but you must take up the cross daily and crucify the old self, the fleshly self, each and every day.

 

So, after all of this, that is my prayer for you, my prayer for me… to wake up each day and to ask what God would have us do to expand His Kingdom.

 

Let’s commit to do as I said… to crash the gates of Hell and bring back some prisoners… to bring them before Christ and pray that He might deliver them.

 

Seize the day my friends!!

 

In Christ, Mike <><

The Broken & Shattered

 

So here I sit

Hands in my lap

Staring at the broken

Tears falling on the shattered

 

Why do we do these things

Lord how are we so deceived

Confused by our free will,

We think we’re in control

 

We make our many plans

We dream

Until we don’t

Paths to dead ends leading

 

Yes, dear Jesus

I still have hope

Still cling to faith

But then there are…

 

My doubts

 

So, I look in the mirror

Finding my own Thomas

Staring back at me

Longing to touch

 

Your scars

 

Is that wrong

Is my honesty weakness

My lack of faith

Smaller than a mustard seed

 

Knowing my righteousness

Is truly rags

Understanding my sin

Is at war in my flesh

 

My repentance like rain

Pours from a shattered heart

My longing for peace

Carries me back

 

To where You Dwell

 

So Dear God

I ask for another gift

The fire of your Spirit

Cleansing and renewing

 

To be used by You

A tool in your Hands

Accomplishing Your will

Growing Your kingdom

 

Don’t leave me unchanged

For you promised

To never leave or forsake

And I’m clinging to that

 

So as I sit here

In these healing tears

My hands are lifted

Giving back all I have

 

This broken fragile life

Leaving the Land of Promise

 

So, this week I was serving at an event.

 

Looking back to last Fall (2021), I heard of a new ministry starting up at Celebration Church, Georgetown, TX. The ministry is called “Endeavor” and for me, it is answer to prayers that I have both whispered and sometimes even shed tears over.

 

Simply described, it is a ministry centered around the fact that work is something created by God, and it is in fact, or was meant to be, good! And as a ministry, we seek to invite God back into the workplace. And that was in fact a very simplistic way of viewing it.

 

Because at it’s heart work and workplaces are very different, aren’t they? Each company created and developed in its own unique way and directed by people how they envision it. So as individuals we experience work and the workplace very differently.

 

And yet, work was made by God, and it was meant to be good. It doesn’t matter what we do for work because as parts of the body of humanity and the body of Christ, we have each been ordained with skills and gifts that when we properly perform them, we fulfill some of the purpose that God has given us.

 

Here’s the thing though… the world is a fallen place and sin has twisted that which God meant for good and managed to create a flawed and misguided construct.

 

We recognize though that the brokenness of the workplace isn’t God’s fault and that the only way we can see the workplace healed involves two things: 1) We must invite God back into the halls of our businesses; and 2) We must seek God in prayer and by the power of the Holy Spirit, we must proactively take back the ground that our ancient enemy has stolen from us.

 

And by taking back ground for God, we impact our world at its core and we plant the seeds of revival!

 

I don’t want to oversimplify this, nor do I want to usurp or take credit for the prayers and hard work of others in this movement. I am deeply moved at moments when looking from the outside looking in at what’s happening here. There is a movement of God in this.

 

Let that sink in. I know this because many of us who are giving our time and gifts to Endeavor are seeing, feeling, and caught up in a move of the Holy Spirit.

 

And it is both inspiring and humbling. God is using willing hands to make a move.

 

So, we come around to why I am writing this little blog piece tonight.

 

I don’t want to forget a moment in my life where I saw God moving, where I felt the tingle and the catching of my breath as I knew God was using me, not for my own glory but His, to reach into someone else’s life and speak hope to a hurting soul.

 

A speaker this past Thursday was discussing many particulars on how to bring a gathering of Christ followers together within a company while overcoming any objections and stumbling blocks that might occur.

 

After asking those of us in the room where we saw ourselves in knowing how to go forward in starting something at the company we worked for, I ended up in a small group that was either undecided or just not certain how we would begin such a movement within our corporate structure.

 

It was at the end of the evening when a gentleman sitting to my left spoke to me after everyone else had left our table. He asked about my thoughts on the whole Endeavor movement and what things looked like at our company. I explained that there are many outspoken followers of Christ including our current CEO. I went on to say that there are some that even have held events where they explained how they had invited Christ into their agencies and seen Him do great things through their willing hands.

 

It was then that he said in apparent confusion, “Mike, then why are you at this table of those who don’t know how to begin something where they are at?!”

 

After explaining that I was simply not understanding how I could start something here locally in Central Texas with the individual agencies located here, he began to understand and then the conversation moved to himself.

 

Instead of writing the short novel that would be needed to discuss every aspect of the ensuing conversation, I want to share what I view as the most important things we talked about and how Endeavor had impacted him that evening.

 

He began to explain who he was and the job he holds but quickly came around to his mindset and heart space where he was as he arrived that evening.

 

He explained that he was in a place where he had just about given up hope on our country and its spiritual state currently. So much so that he wanted to take his family and move to another country where he imagined it was headed in a better direction.

 

But…

 

He explained then that he was having a change of heart after hearing the speakers that evening and after my own testimony about how I was seeing God make amazing moves through Endeavor already.

 

I could go on to tell you about the deep pain that was confessed to me because of what the enemy had attacked him personally with over the years. I will keep that in confidence. But all that to say that we in this Endeavor movement are already venturing into the territory that the enemy arrogantly believes is his and lost to God. If we allow God to use us, I firmly believe that God will take back ground and make it holy again. I believe that God can bring the revival that many of us have so longed for and prayed over.

 

We win one battle at a time. We win when we invite God into the battle and follow His lead. We win when we link arms and stand together with the Holy Spirit guiding us.

 

I am so thankful that I stayed at that table the other night. I just felt the gentle tug of the Holy Spirit asking me to sit a while and just open my mouth and letting Him speak through me. I’m nothing special but like many of you I just want to be available and used by God to do His good will however that might look.

 

Be encouraged. We are in the middle of a move of God. Of this I am convinced.

 

Be open to God’s still small voice and go seize the day my friends. Let’s go together and take back some ground from the enemy and let’s bring back some captives with us!

 

In Christ’s love,

 

Mike Meehan <><