Monday, October 5, 2015

Just a Gun and its Thoughts

Like most creations
I was born from thought
From need unto design
From creativity was I wrought

To ease their toil and labor
I came from human need
Never could’ve imagined
My role in an evil deed

For once created I lie here
Sometimes in a musty case
Or belted in a holster
Sometimes I start a race

Sometime in my history
Like Cain and Abel of old
I was forced to commit a murder
Hefted like a rock in passion so bold

Was not asked for my opinion
Nor given any choice
As I’m an inanimate object
God never granted me a voice

No way to wander nor explore
I cannot I choose my owner
Sometimes I stand for the law
And other times for a stoner

The liberals think I embody evil
But Constitution grants a right you see
Those would be owners want a choice
Just a chance to take or leave me

And so I lie here until I’m taken up
No actions made when not in hand
Some say that if I was unattainable
All would be far safer in this land

Some wonder if I were unmade
Beaten down from sword to plow
That violence would be of the past
And peace could be ushered in now

But though I am this lowly thing
And my thoughts are just my own
I wonder at the shortsightedness
That history’s always shown

For some, they always follow
Intelligent thoughts so far away
In breezes of popular thought
Their white flags wave and sway

Blaming all on unfeeling metal
As if we could choose our use
They plot to keep us from the sane
And in so doing tighten the noose

You see they’ve never been correct
It’s not at all about what I condone
It’s always been about a human’s heart
I assure you I’ve never acted alone

So when you next see those tears
The hot stains on victim’s face
Don’t be fooled that it’s my fault
Nobody does evil like the human race

Thursday, September 24, 2015

Earthly Stage

Our lives like a play
Lived on an Earthly stage
Act like we have no say
With our script written in stone

Performing this mortal play
As if the end was written
Stumbling through each day
Like helpless marionettes

But, the writer smiles on us
For our shortsighted unknowing
And our living so unaware
Because this script lives and breathes

A living document is our play
A story etched from invisible ink
A novel which is both finished
And yet remains incomplete

For though the end’s a mystery
To those who live this play
The conclusion is known
By the one who truly sees

And so we stumble and stagger
Drunken in our own ignorance
Lost and looking for answers
We cry out from bended knees

And if we grow silent and still
Humbling these trembling hearts
We may yet hear His quiet call
A whisper to cast all fear aside

Courage is just a prayer away
A treasure with no value
Until these hands through faith
Lift the sword and cut these bonds

Only then are our eyes set free
To see beyond these chains
Courage wielding the key
That unlocks faith and freedom

So it goes from then till now
On and on this play repeats
From one generation to another
Endless lives shuffle across this stage

Insanity’s outcomes only broken
By scarred hands that intercede
And so He tore that curtain down
That stood for the longest time

Selfless sacrifice ended our separation
That His father we might know
Tore up our scripts and made a way
So that in free will we now dwell

And again as though on a stage
Our lives are lived for all to see
But we no longer have to languish there 
Because in Christ we've been set free

Sunday, August 30, 2015

STAR WARS - MANDALORIAN BROTHER LOST - Chapter 2 - Fan Fiction

STAR WARS
MANDALORIAN BROTHER LOST
Chapter 2
As the four vehicles arrived, Ridge was struck again at the antiquated tech he was seeing.  These vehicles clearly had no repulsors and instead rolled along on soft black rollers that appeared to be filled with a gas of some sort.  Ridge had heard of such things, but had only rarely seen anything close on any of the worlds he had visited. 
One vehicle took the lead and pulled up within a few yards of the cockpit view-port.  A burly man with short cropped graying hair stood up and stepped down out of the passenger seat.  His face was weathered and tanned as well as scarred.  Ridge knew a seasoned soldier when he saw one, though he had rarely encountered a soldier that had obviously lived through numerous campaigns.  Most clone soldiers did not live long enough to ever get gray hair let alone see their first year out of the academy.
Ridge was fortunate indeed, since he had far outlasted many of his cadre brothers.  He had shown an even greater aptitude than many of his clan mates for learning and doing it quickly.  This ability had saved his shebs more times than he could count, but had also loaded his heart with guilt.  At times he felt an overwhelming sense of loss and heartache for those many brothers that he was unable to save.  He knew it was unreasonable for him to think such things, but he also knew that his Kaminoan creators had not managed to breed the humanity out of him.  So he sometimes mulled over his thoughts regarding the brevity of a soldier’s life and the lack of value the Republic had placed on he and his brothers.
Unknown to virtually every one of Ridge’s buddies though was that his life was truly unnatural in comparison to theirs.  For Ridge had a secret.  He held a secret that only an elite few were aware of.  One of his old Mandalorian sergeants had approached him less than six months prior to his current predicament.  This sergeant, Kal Skirata, had offered him a chance at a real life, a life measured in decades, not just a few short years.
For you see, the Mandalorian clones that had mostly been birthed on Kamino had been predestined with a fatal flaw.  In order to create an army of the vast size that the Republic required and even then on a fast time line, the clones had to be forced to mature quickly.  Oh yes, the clones were bred for war and oh yes they were compliant, but they could not live long with the accelerated growth built into them.  For those clones that outlived the fighting that so often ended their struggle for life, they were doomed for the most part to less than a decade or two of living.  And, inside they were just young boys craving to know what life was really all about beyond the battlefields that they knew so well.
Kal Skirata, or Kal Buir, or Papa Kal was a hard fighting, razor edged man that had a soft heart when it came to “his boys.”  Kal made no bones about how much he despised and hated the Kaminoans for using the clones so harshly and so often unceremoniously “disposing” of the flawed ones.  He had made it his business to look out for their needs and rights even after he had walked away from the Republic in disgust over their treatment of “his” boys. 
Kal had set up a special retreat on the Mandalorian home planet of Mandalore.  From that base he had begun waging a private war on those who would profit from his boys suffering.  He had made it his life’s work to search for a cure that would reverse the accelerated aging process that the clones were subject to.  He eventually succeeded, but it was a bittersweet victory since Kal was really only able to save a very few of these men. 
Kal had encountered Ridge on numerous occasions since he had moved quickly through the ranks to become a special ops fighter with numerous specializations.  Kal was called back to the GAR headquarters many times to either consult with the GAR leaders regarding tactics or how to deal with the difficult Mandalorian leadership.  Kal was always impressed by Ridge’s neutral attitude towards the GAR and towards the Jedi.  But more than that, Kal was impressed… no, touched deeply by Ridge’s apparent love for the rest of his clone brothers.  Ridge often spent time in the infirmary or the rehab centers in his down time, apparently just playing sabac or swapping war stories with various clones who were out of action.  Kal could see more than your average clone in Ridge and he wanted to give him a gift.  A gift worthy of one who had sacrificed much and deserved to live something a little closer to a normal life.
 A standard week before Ridge had shipped out on is current mission he had received a care package from Kal.  Spicy nerf jerky, a container of candied wara nuts, and a hypo of something that Ridge was sure could not be what he thought it was.
There was also a neatly folded bundle of flimsy with his name written in Mandalorian on the outside.  Ridge had the time later that night when they were going to be in hyperspace transit to the latest hot zone.  He was brutally tired of all the killing, especially all of these newly cropping up civilian uprisings.  Apparently much of the galaxy’s hard working under-classes were not as confident and happy that the Jedi had all but been wiped out.  With so many under-armed people willing to throw themselves in front of his Deece, he was thinking maybe he had misjudged the Jedi.  He still believed that they were misguided and that often many of them had been arrogant, but he knew now that they would have sided with the very people he was being ordered to kill.
Ridge did not want any more innocent blood on his hands.  He knew he wanted out, but after what had happened to several of his defecting brothers recently, he was for one of the first times in his life fearful that he would not live to experience a “normal” life.  During his travel to the new combat zone, he made up his mind to contact Kal.  A small luxury he had been afforded as he rose in rank from Sergeant to Captain, was that he was assigned his own quarters on most of the Republic’s larger vessels.  This now gave him the chance that he needed to have privacy to work out his escape plan with little chance for its discovery.  Ridge donned his helmet and immediately winked out the activation code sequence that would initiate the secured comm. line to Mandalore. 
The line crackled and popped for a moment and then a clear line came up.  Ridge was further shocked at the audacity of Kal and his boys when he realized that Kal had set this line up with a holo feed as well.  A small picture appeared in his left eyepiece.  Initially, he could only see what looked like a blank wall of what did not appear to be a plasti-form field building like the GAR would use.  Instead, it appeared to be a wall paneled in of all things, wood.
A moment later, a face appeared.  A face he knew all too well.  It was his own, but with a few scars he did not recognize and a mouth that was twisted in a mischievous half-grin.  He was pretty sure who this fellow brother was and he was amazed since at one time, reports had said that Fi was mortally wounded and left for dead after one of the battles following the execution of Order 66. 
Fi’s voice came over loud and clearer than Ridge would ever have imagined considering the distance that he knew was between them.  Fi said, “Ahh.. Kal had us all wondering if we’d ever hear from you.  Koyiche Rijika!”
Ridge was caught off guard at the use of his Mando name.  Only Kal had dared use it since a day long ago that he would rather forget.  Ridge had beat other men to within an inch of their lives since that day for daring to use it again, but now it felt different.  This time it came with hope attached.  “Koyiche Fi!  I have little time for this communication Fi.  Is Kal there?  Can I speak to him?  It’s urgent.”
Fi hesitated, his face showing that he had news that was not what Ridge wanted to hear.  “Ah.. I’m sorry Rij.  Kal is offworld on one of his little missions.  He left orders for no one to contact him unless there was urgent reason to do so.  I’m afraid you’re going to have to hang on there brother.”
   “Gone to ground has he?  Well, I’ve been waiting this long, so I guess another campaign or two isn’t any more likely to be the death of me than any of the previous ones.  You barvs seen any action lately Fi?”
Fi chuckled for a moment.  “Come on Rij, you know I can’t share our secrets with you until you’ve blown all your bridges behind you.  It’d be way too risky for all of us.  But, I can tell you that if you were here with your liberated brothers, you would never be bored.  That is unless you want to be.  Kal Buir would never keep you from your dreams.  Whatever your heart desires is all Kal wants for any of us.  If you hope to find a mate and settle somewhere to be a dirt farmer, then he’ll gladly leave you to yourself.” 
Ridge was startled out of his thoughts on Fi’s words by a warning klaxon now blaring over the com system in the corridor outside his quarters.  “Sorry to bang out on you Fi, but seems we’ve just reverted and the locals don’t want us here in the worst way.  Let Kal know I came calling as soon as you can…” Ridge nearly choked on his next words.  “Fi… I want out brother.  My heart is not in this anymore.”
Fi was quiet for a moment.  Normally very funny and blessed with a dry wit, he was temporarily lost for words.  He knew just how hard it was to leave the only things you knew.  To leave your brothers and the bond they all shared.  But he knew the other side of that decision was the freedom he now lived in.  There was no turning back.
“Rijika, you hold strong and watch your back.  Don’t lower your guard and lose focus.  We need and want you here.  Even if all you want is to be left alone.  We’ll get your attention again soon enough and we’ll get you out of there clean. We’ll keep the nerf steaks hot and leave plenty of warra nuts for you.  Koyiche Rijika!  Fi out.”
“Koyiche Fi.”
That conversation seemed so long ago already.  The battle that ensued right after that conversation had been a fateful one.  A battle that landed him here, wherever in the universe here was.
Ridge was startled out of his thoughts at a loud clanging on the exit hatch.  “Nine-Eight, prepare for a boarding party.  Let’s not aggravate these barvs if we can help it.  I have a feeling they are already just a bit angry about one of their fighters being nothing but scrap.  Go meet them at the hatch and bring them to meet me in the mess.”
“Certainly Sir.”
Ridge heard the hatch air lock hiss open in the distance and then voices raised momentarily in surprise.  Or was it alarm?  He could hear Nine-Eight raise his voice as well, but then all of the voices trailed briefly off.
Ridge made his way back to the small mess area near the center of the ship and only waited a moment to hear the voices growing louder again.  He sat down at the primary dining table and waited for the boarding party.  They arrived a moment later and He was surprised to see that the gray haired man was a bit shorter than he had expected.  Ridge barely concealed a grin at the expressions on the faces of the three boarders.  Their eyes were drinking in every detail of his ship and their mouths nearly hung open from apparent shock at the sight of the entirely unfamiliar tech.
The gray haired soldier composed himself quickly and took on a more serious air of authority and expectation that his commands would not be questioned.  He began to speak and Ridge felt an immediate gut reaction since he had just that voice quality that conveyed authority and confidence. 
He looked directly at Ridge and said, “Sir, we are confiscating this craft until further notice.”
Ridge felt a rage boiling up from deep inside. But a voice in his head was whispering to him. He couldn’t concentrate on what it was saying unless he could calm his spirit. He took a deep breath and brought up a calming thought. Unnoticed by the boarders, he used a meditation technique he had picked up from one of the young Jedi generals that he had served with briefly. Ridge at one time thought this young Jedi was crazy, but he could not argue with the successful use of this method for he and his brothers when they were in stressful situations, which was practically all of the time.
And the voice was saying that he needed to just remain calm and bide his time. He would get a chance to break free from these aruetyc soon enough. He still felt uncertain, but at least he wasn’t about to blow an actuator. Strange though, that voice brought up feelings of familiarity that he could not shake. Someone he had known and at one time respected came to mind. But... that was a while ago and had not ended well. Ridge shook off the thought and tried to focus on “gray hair.”
“Son.” Gray Hair said. “Are you well? Have you been injured? Should I have a medical officer check you out?”
“No, I’m fine.” Ridge said in his best trooper monotone.
“Do you have a name or a designation, son?” asked Gray Hair.
“My designation is CT-RDJ-8,” Ridge whispered
“Ok, son.” Gray Hair said softly.  “I think I understand.  We’ll try and take this slow.  For now.”
“No, you don’t understand,” thought Ridge.  “If you truly did, maybe you’d help me.  Maybe you would mourn for me.”
Ridge’s mind was spinning.  It was awash with thoughts and plans for escape, but it was also leading him toward the slippery slope of depression.  He was finding it increasingly difficult to see any hope for his escape, since he knew that could not happen without some help.  And, there was the tough question.  From where exactly could he get help if he had no idea where he was and no idea if anybody he knew was anywhere close enough to get to him at all.  Damned wormhole!
He had always had his brothers to fall back on.  Even if some of them were killed off in battle, others like them were sent to take their places.  They shared more than just their genetics, they shared in rituals that had been drilled into them by their trainers.  They bonded them together at some deeper level, especially the one where they recited the names of all of their fallen brothers.  This ritual was repeated after returning from every battle. 
 Some of their trainers were Mandalorian like his had been.  Kal Skirata was a great trainer and had become like a father to many of “his boys.”  Ridge would never forget papa Kal and the risks he took to make the clones feel like more than just blaster fodder. 
With these varied thoughts swirling through his head and consuming him, Ridge barely noticed the quiet footsteps that came up behind him. And the gentle hands that placed a field blanket over his weary shoulders. When he glanced around, he thought he saw the slight form of a woman ducking around the nearest bulkhead. With the warm blanket on his shoulders, he began feeling all the stress of the last day draining from him.
Then he heard a woman’s voice telling him to stand.
“Let’s make this easy OK?”
He recognized the voice. It was the female pilot that had convinced him to land and surrender. He looked her in the eye and saw sympathy, curiosity, confusion, and something else he couldn’t quite pin down. What was her name again?
“Sarah?” He said quietly.
“Yes?” She said with expectation.
“Why haven’t I been taken to a cell, or thrown in my ships brig?”
           “Well,” she paused. “To be honest, none of us knows what to make of you. I mean you come hurtling into our system from who knows where. You take out some of our defenses and nearly kill one of us, but then you contradict all that we might think of you and risk your freedom to save one of us. And you do all of that soldier,” she pauses again, “after we do our level best to vaporize you.”
           “Don’t get us wrong though. We have locked down your ship to the tarmac and we think that we have disconnected your power sources so that you would at least be slowed down if you were to try to escape. You are imprisoned here, but if you show us the same integrity that we saw in the air, you may find yourself with more freedom than you might have imagined.”
Ridge was truly puzzled. Back in the Republic, at the very least he would be locked up in solitary and for his lack of cooperation he would likely be facing torture. In fact, for his having taken out a key piece of hardware like Deej’s fighter, he would likely already be dead. The facts were that these people, despite any hard feelings he might have against them, were already showing themselves to be of a better caliber than was often found back in his part of the universe.
He made an attempt to build another bridge. “Sarah, for whatever it’s worth.” He paused, feeling lonelier than ever. “Thank you for sticking up for me and not letting the heat of the moment get the best of you.”
“You know, I think you still have this partially wrong. I mean, don’t you figure you maybe did a little of the defending your life on your own? I did stick up for you, but you really did show some real…” She paused too, at a loss for the right word. “You know the word I would choose is quality. You did something not many of the rest of us would have ever had the courage to do in the heat of battle.”
Ridge considered this. “I understand how you might reach that conclusion miss… I mean Sarah. But, … well if I was not lost and separated from my unit, things might have gone far differently.”
“Well sir, the fact is the situation is exactly how you described it and you made the choices today that you made. And, because you did them, you have a certain amount of freedom. If I were you, I would enjoy them, but I would not take them for granted.”
“On a side note, I would sure feel better about all of this if you had a name. I mean that code of yours is fine I’m sure if you are a prisoner in hostile company, but I hope that we might be on friendlier terms than that. If not now, then maybe someday soon.
Ridge was feeling lonely and Sarah’s speech was fairly convincing, if not completely sincere. He only had to think for another moment. “OK Sarah. If nothing else, it will make the conversations easier. You can call me Ridge. Captain Ridge.”
Sarah looked at him with piercing green eyes.
“Well, Captain Ridge. We’ll see what the future holds. If you’ll be here for a while, I hope we can become friends. But, it has been a long day don’t you think? Are you hungry?”
“I would say starving Sarah, but that would be an exaggeration. I do have rations in my locker in the hold,” he said unconvincingly.
“But wouldn’t you rather have a fresh, hot, home cooked meal?” Sarah said disbelieving him. “Field rations can’t hold up against that. Right?”
“Well, no. But, except for a rare special occasion, that’s all I’ve ever known.” Ridge was feeling hungrier by the minute.
“Then that settles it!” Sarah said with enthusiasm. “Captain Ridge, you are in for a treat. Our head cook, Rudy will make you forget about those field rations for sure. For tonight you’ll need to stay on your ship, so Rudy will be bringing the meal on board.”
“What about after today?” Ridge queried.
Ridge sensed Sarah hesitating.
“We’ll cross that bridge tomorrow Captain. Let’s just see this day through and let tomorrow’s concerns be just that,” said Sarah with a slight smile.
So that settled it. And just a short time later Rudy arrived at Ridge’s ship and brought a fresh hot meal the like he could not compare to in his short life. According to Sarah, there were barbecued baby back ribs, (Which at first Ridge refused until Sarah laughingly explained they were not from human babies, but rather a creature called a pig) beef steaks, and a sweet fleshed fish called a trout. There were also fresh vegetables of several varieties including something called roasted corn on the cob which he especially liked. But the desert was the crowning jewel of the night. Sarah called it ice cream and said it was made from frozen cow’s milk, sugar and there was a fruit in this one called peaches. He could have eaten the entire crock of it, but he tried his best not to be rude.
Sarah would have spent the whole night laughing at Ridge’s almost childlike delight in the food but she didn’t want to embarrass him too much. She also felt a strange sense of sadness in Ridge. Something in her heart made her realize that there was far more to this man than just his rough soldier’s exterior and the mystery about where he had come from. There were many unanswered questions and she was becoming sure that some of the answers were going to be difficult for more than just Ridge to talk about.
Sarah was also briefly baffled about something Captain Ridge said right after Rudy left them with the food.
Ridge stared intensely at Rudy when he first entered the ship’s common area. In fact the stare was so intense that Rudy told Sarah that Ridge made him feel uncomfortable. Ridge apologized and said that Rudy reminded him of someone that he had once known. Sarah filed that in the back of her mind to ask him about later. She sincerely wanted to make Ridge at ease since she felt it would be easier for him to be interrogated later if he was less stressed.
Unknown to Ridge, Sarah had continued to battle for him behind the scenes.  She had been forced more than once to remind everyone in charge that Ridge had risked a great deal by agreeing to surrender. He could have easily taken out all of the fighter craft at their base. She knew he probably could not survive for very long without refueling or being able to replenish his stores of missiles and ballistic rounds but he seemed like he could be resourceful enough to go to ground for an unknown amount of time.

Sarah argued more and more frequently that befriending this man might provide advantages to them against their terrible and powerful enemies. If Captain Ridge had been captured by the enemy, there would be all manner of hell to pay later. And, if word got back to their enemies that they had gotten their hands on new and formidable technology like Ridge’s ship boasted, the enemy would be certain to show up sooner rather than later to rip it from their cold dead hands.

Friday, August 7, 2015

Signs in the Heavens


Saw the sky blush
So shyly in its peering
And through the windows
Captivated gaze was steering

Opened the blinds
To vista’s glory
Pristine pastels spoke
Of the Creator’s story

In crystal blues
Beside golden treasures
And pinks like flowers
Brought heartfelt pleasures

Heavenly brushstrokes
Swept away my cares
Breathed joy and peace
So this heart again dares

Courage again to dream
And hope to lift these wings
This heart may boldly go
Eyes seeing past earthly things

So with chin held high
And armor from head to toe
I step boldly into this day
Because Savior will with me go

Take the bushel from this light
And to the world dare show
The flame not of my own
In darkness casts its glow

For I know I’m naught without you
Alone cannot stand and fight
But when you dwell in my heart
There’s no need to fear the night

So as darkness descends
Inevitably comes my way
You remind me once again
It’s you that won the day

In evening canopy you show again
Amidst the lightning flash
That your promises never fail
And my hopes you will not dash

For stretched across your canvas
A rainbow glows in skies of rust
And so my arms they rise to you
Because it’s in you I place my trust

Monday, June 22, 2015

Our Accusers' Folly


You always throw me
Kick me to the curb
Every chance you get
My life you just disturb

It’s in your nature
How you roar and rage
Won’t leave me alone
Ripped open your cage

Stand in your pinstripes
In most convincing disguise
Piling on the evidence
My destruction is your prize

I would fight them
Rage against your lies
If only you were physical
I’d steal life from your eyes

Your native tongue
Vomits an endless flow
Buries me in despair
Drags me into the undertow

When my sight grows dim
I own the caricature you create
Hope gone like fog on a breeze
My dreams stolen by your hate

So you may ask me how
How do I stand in the wind
Where do I find the strength
Don’t break but just bend

No earthly anchor strong
No hero’s strength I bear
Only from bended knees
Can I this tempest dare

For my eyes have read
And my heart has heard
Eternal promises made
And your lessons learned

My Savior knows me
Breathed life into this dust
Stands forever in my defense
And in Him I place my trust

When I lie here in these ruins
Laid low by enemies blows
Savior’s promises lift these eyes
To see the defeat of all my foes

Ask me how my hope hangs on
And my heart will tell you why
Faiths spark is fanned to flame
For my eternity did Jesus buy

And in each step now I take
Forward whether to run or crawl
Each breath a gift from my Lord
So in this strength that’s not my own

Now can I stand tall

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Doormat No More

Here I have lain
For oh so long
Lost track of time
And it felt all wrong

Didn’t happen quickly
It happened just the same
Never was content here
And I sought someone to blame

If you look a bit too closely
And read between the lines
You may be a bit surprised
By the social landmines

For you see, true friendship
Well it does not seek its own
And finds in putting others first
Kingdom’s treasures have grown

A truer friend cannot be found
A better brother never seen
Than one who lays down their life
On hope of repayment doesn’t lean

And yet there I lay
With my hope held fast
Waiting patiently
While precious time had passed

As time flows relentlessly by
Heart like fragile glass does crack
Assaulted by sticks and stones
And the weight of excuses stack

Like a splinter in the heart
Or a stinger’s poison flows
I dig deep to remove you
And recover from your blows

My spirit only stands this way
Sways and creaks in these winds
By the strength of faithful Savior
Back not broken, it only bends


Monday, May 25, 2015

Honoring Our Defenders


On this day in May each year, we are often just chilling, relaxing, partying, etc.

But, this holiday was not really meant to just be a day off from work. There is nothing wrong with having the day off you see but there is simply something deeper that needs to happen on this day. Something like appreciation. Something like thankfulness.

For this freedom we enjoy did not just miraculously appear one day. It didn’t just sprout from out of nothing. It was bought with the precious blood of our grandfathers, fathers, brothers, husbands, and friends. And even in more recent years it has come from the blood of our grandmothers, mothers, and sisters as well.  

And, whether you carry a sense of national pride or not, you bear witness to and live within the hard won freedoms that we all often take for granted.

You may within the right of your freedom of speech, dishonor both the living and the dead by the calloused and ignorant things you say regarding our war heroes but just understand that your right to speak evil was bought and is not an entitlement!

If we are not careful, we could lose these precious rights we so often take for granted.

When we do not place the proper value and importance on the good things within our nationalism, then we may ultimately lose them as they become diluted by the evils within globalism and humanism.

I fear for the younger generations of our great country because many of them simply don’t see through the examples of civilizations gone and dead that it is all too easy to become arrogant, complacent, and tolerant of all sorts of evil.

You may wake up one day just to find Rome burning…

And I for one believe that despite the fact that I don’t buy into this country as being a “Christian” nation, we do have much in our past to be proud of. Many of our countries fathers may have in fact been Christ followers, but our country has followed its own way enough times that it is foolish to wave the Christian flag over it and act as if our existence is divinely ordained.

So, you may ask, if we are not a Christian nation then how is it that so many of us want to constantly call upon God to bless America? It is simply this: we call upon God to bless us since much of the time in the last 100 years or so we have been one of the only countries with enough audacity to stick our necks out and defend the rights and lives of the downtrodden. How many other countries reach out to protect the rights of women, children, and the voiceless poor? Sometimes our motives may not be perfect, but who else is really trying to stand against the vile tide that is ISIS/ISIL?

People within and without this country may criticize America, but I tell you, where will the world go without us?

I will close with the following:

1)      There is absolute truth whether you believe it or not. And, whether we uphold this to be true or not, then as God has indicated humanity has a date with destiny, a date with its own demise and His rightful judgement.
2)      There is absolute evil. It is found in the self-centered worship of the almighty me/mine. (and I believe it is most currently demonstrated in the full flowering of the true infidels of humankind (currently seen vividly in ISIS/ISIL)). When there becomes in any one person or society a total disregard for the value and sacredness of human life, therein is found the heart of hell itself!
3)      Thank God for each and every day that he blesses you with life and breath, for each day grants us a new chance to demonstrate His love to a desperate and dying world.
4)      Guard your mind, heart, and tongue and understand to do this requires that you ask for God’s help as I can assure you that you cannot do these things without His intervention daily.
5)      Love others in the same way you long for while keeping in mind that God loved us “while we were yet sinners.”

Lastly, again, let’s remember this day and every chance we think about it going forward to pray for and encourage those who have sacrificed and continue to sacrifice themselves to ensure our freedoms. Do not waste a chance to honor our service men and women at every opportunity that presents itself.

Pray for all of our returning vets and defend their rights to ethical and fair treatment as they work on re-integrating back into society after deployment. It should be a great shame to us that so many of them do not receive the healthcare or benefits they need to overcome the very real after effects of combat (PTSD to name one).

Thank a soldier today!

Sincerely,

Mike Meehan
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Monday, April 27, 2015

The Burdens We All Bear


Life has a way of often throwing us many challenges. Some of these are just in the day to day short term things. Some challenges though, come at us as long term issues that slowly build a head of steam until they become unavoidable and often quite destructive.

My mind has been swimming with challenges coming at me for quite some time now. As some of you know, this past year has been eventful. It was one that both was both a capstone on the previous 24 plus years working in a stressful J.O.B. (just above broke) and a line in the sand that marks a new beginning where I am finding may way as a new business owner.

However, lest you get confused and tune me out, you must know that this post is not one to toot my own horn and bore you with me trying to sell you something. This post is far, far away from that. So, please read on.

Ask yourself if you agree with the following:

           “We all bear a burden or burdens of some sort from time to time. And, these burdens often weigh us down to the point where they are so absorbing that they paralyze us and prevent us from truly living.”

I am not a magician, nor am I a wizard. I cannot magically see into your life nor can I predict what direction any of our lives will take. The only certainty that I can give you is this, that life is uncertain and full of surprises. If you are like me at all I bet you can think for just a few moments and you too will come up with at least a small list of things that weigh on your heart these days.

I am not writing this to bring you down though and I do not want you to go away from having read this and be even more burdened.

Instead, I want you to realize that if you (like myself) confess to be a follower of Christ, then you have a ready and waiting confidant and intercessor that is just waiting for you to call out to Him for help.

You see, we have this Savior and He is no distant aloof and unconcerned God. On the contrary, because He lived here on Earth with us, breathed the same air, walked in this same fragile shell we call a body. He is well acquainted with our challenges and burdens. He is in fact sympathetic to what we experience and how hard it can be to stand in the storms of life.

Just yesterday, I was at our church and heard a special speaker. You may or may not have heard of this man who was once a highly awarded professional baseball player. He explained how he did not know or acknowledge God and lived only for himself. He had reached the bottom in his life after all of the misbehavior and lack of concern for both himself and others. It was only when the one person he loved the most said that she would no longer be a part of his life if he would not change and follow Christ that he finally woke up and truly looked in the mirror. His name is Daryl Strawberry. Understand that it was not his celebrity that made an impression on me yesterday; it was his humble, down to earth, and simple message that spoke to me. He reminded everybody at service yesterday that we must crucify (his word was kill) our old self and live out our lives as our new self, whose identity finds its existence and identity in Christ!

So where am I going with this? Did I lose sight of my topic regarding our burdens?

No, I did not.

You see, too often we over-complicate things. We over analyze our life and circumstances. We miss the simplicity that Christ calls us to. He asks us to place the yoke of our burdens on His shoulders. Not completely mind you, but to instead do as He asks us and to share them with Him. He asks us to see Him as the lead Ox on a team, with Him as the older and more experienced one who we can learn from. So our burdens are not gone, but are now lighter and the solutions come for us because we are following the lead of one who has walked in our human shoes and understands what it takes for us to make it through our valleys. We walk beside Him and face all that comes as a team.

What does not kill us makes us stronger. Truly.

We are never alone and we do not have to despair because He has already said that He will never leave or forsake His children.

We will always have cares and troubles this side of eternity. Our world is a fallen place and we are now surrounded by more skepticism, more unbelief, more acceptance of sin, and more despair than ever. Unless you bury your head in the sand and cover your eyes you cannot miss the often ugly things that are going on around us.

But, as followers of Christ, we know that this world is passing away and the Earth will one day be renewed. Judgement will be justly administered by the only one who has the right to hand it out.

He has placed this eternal light in our hearts that is fueled by love. His love.

The world cannot extinguish His light. It can try to rob us of it and it can try to destroy us when we don’t give in but once we are adopted into Christ’s family we will never be abandoned.

So know this today. No matter where you are in your life. No matter what circumstances weigh down your heart. You have an advocate and friend. In fact you have more than just one friend. You have Christ if you have accepted Him as your savior, but you also have many brothers and sisters in your adopted family.

You can reach out to Jesus and share your burdens with Him and you can also come alongside some of the rest of us for help too.

Don’t face your burdens alone anymore. You simply do not have to.

Reach out to your family today. We’re here for you.

In Christ,

Mike Meehan
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Matthew 11:29 – 30

29"Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. 30"For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."





Saturday, March 28, 2015

The Sacred Things Hiding Amongst the Mundane

I pray this post finds you in a good place after this past week. I pray that you are able to be thankful and rejoice for yet another day of life and breath. I ask that as you read this that you think on this past week with a certain awareness of the simple things that have great value. Also as you ponder another week gone by I hope you have a sense of those moments that despite their simplicity were actually sacred.

If you think about it, each moment we live does not necessarily bleed smoothly into the next. They are not so much disjointed and completely separate, but instead could be viewed from the outside looking in as separate acts in a lifelong play. We face each moment and situation with a chance for making the most of it, or just going through it on autopilot. We risk either living up to some sense of greatness or just winging it and missing out on the tremendous power of an opportunity.

Don’t miss out on blessings because you simply won’t take the risk of living life as a participant but instead settle for being a spectator or worse, a victim.

Don’t get me wrong, I have to own up to sometimes taking what seems to be the easy way out, and finding myself instead bearing the very real burden of regret. It’s not a place where we really want to live and I firmly believe that if we stay in this place, we are in fact not truly living.

Look back on your week. Can you see the places where our lives intersected the sacred? Can you see where God spoke to you and let you know that He is very aware of your struggles, your weaknesses, and your desperate need for His unconditional love?

If you are like me at all, maybe you watched as others around you said goodbye (temporarily) to those who they loved and won’t see again until the other side of eternity. Maybe you instead walked a road of struggle to just put food on your table and longed for things to just get a bit easier. Or, maybe you had to take some deep breaths and push into each day as you faced private pain whether physical or spiritual (though I believe these go hand in hand).

I am sending this post with prayers attached for the both of us. I never have really had any easy answers for anyone. Though I am all for positivity and understand that God has already won the war over death, and pain, and suffering, I know as you do that this does not mean that we will not face these challenges this side of heaven. So, again I pray that you can lay your cares at the feet of your (our) Savior because He has walked our road and lived the realities of living in these frail bodies that we now dwell in. He knows your heart and mind and He sees every tear. We are not alone and He is only a prayer away.

To those of you who have said the hardest goodbyes this week. To you I can only give you this: What joyful and blessed reunions await you on that day when you too step over the threshold of this life into the waiting arms of Jesus. I can envision the hugs, and kisses, and warm welcome from those who we miss dearly when we meet them again. Until that day, keep singing the songs that remind you of the same faith that they share with you. Talk about the precious memories, remember all of the shared moments, and honor their memory. Rejoice that they are now in the great cloud of witnesses that cheer us on to the finish line of our own lives.
I’ll leave you with this. I went to the movies this afternoon with my two favorite girls. We watched the new Disney Cinderella movie. It was really well done and I am still pondering two things that it left on my mind. First, Cinderella’s mother spoke a precious legacy into her daughter before she passed away. Her mother said that no matter what life handed Cinderella, she needed to have courage and she needed to live in kindness toward others. (Please keep in mind that I know this is just a fairy tale, but hear me on this: “Never miss the moments in life where God whispers a truth to your heart, no matter what venue He chooses to speak to you through, including movies, books, the words of a friend or stranger, or nature itself.”) There is a brief and poignant moment near the end of the movie where Cinderella is faced with a choice. She can choose to be vindictive and possibly in some people’s minds to rightfully berate her wicked step mother for the years of abuse and lack of love that were unfairly heaped on Cinderella. Instead, Disney made the choice to have Cinderella simply just say, “I forgive you.”

Now, for some in the audience, I am sure this was missed. For myself, I actually caught my breath at that moment. Those words were and are very powerful. Forgiveness is extremely powerful! God has forgiven us (if you have accepted Christ as your Savior that is) for a lifetime of sin. This was and is a very great price that was paid to cover our shortcomings and failings to live up to God’s requirement of a sinless and blameless life. We have much to be thankful for!

Again, I ask you. Look back across this past week and take note of what God has taught you in every moment you lived. Hear His quiet voice and take to heart the things He wants you to do in the week ahead that will honor Him.

Run the race to the finish line! Keep your eyes on the prize of an eternity spent with our Savior!

In Christ,

Mike Meehan

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Thursday, March 26, 2015

Shatter the Mirror

So I live in this poverty
Hard days and sleepless nights
Late to bed and early to rise
And still I face into the wind

You may judge me true
But please wait your turn
And get in the line
For you’re not the first

And you may be surprised
Or maybe again you won’t
For at the front of the line
Look carefully and take note

For the first one there
The one with the biggest stone
The one most ready to fight
Well, he wears my face

A strange thing is this judgment
This unwanted pity
This failure to understand
Introspection a dying art

You see I’ve observed this truth
And it’s really no mystery
We are often our own worst critic
No enemy so venomous as the self

So I challenge us both
I throw down this gauntlet
Scream out my barbarian cry
And then I whisper so very quiet

Let’s break these mirrors

For if I have learned even one thing
Gleaned one truth from this journey
Then it would be this one nugget
This one goad to move us forward

To break these ghostly chains
Is the key to a better future
And, you will not regret it
Won’t waste another tear

Gaze instead into your Saviors eyes
Look into them and see
See the love unearned
And, yet freely given
Demonstrated in nail scars

We are bought at dearest price
Rescued from darkness
And carried into a new day
A better future now assured

Our reflection not misplaced again
Not found in enemies lies
Not found in mirrors’ deception

But instead in dear Father’s gaze

Monday, March 16, 2015

In Whom I Have Believed’


Though I write now
From this place of doubt
Though my pen speaks
From a troubled heart

Do not doubt
And do not fear
That I know
In whom I have believed’

For time never ceases to flow
And life just doesn't slow down
For not even one of us
So, I hold no fantasies close

But I do hold some things

Close

The ones I love
And the Word
Who loved me first
These I hold dear

I cast aside some things
Some weighty painful things
For its these that hold me back
These sorrows that pull me down

For to place my faith
In the frail hands
Of those who like me
Are born of dust

To do this thing
Is to reach for something less
Less than truth
Less than hope

For my hope cannot be found
In finite things
In these fading flowers
In things that fall to dust

Instead, I anchor my hope
On the Eternal Rock
Tested by the passage of time
And unmoved by human thought

For you have turned
Your ear to my cries
And you have listened
When others shut me out

You have walked with me
Whether in darkest valley
Or over peaks of exquisite joy
And you've never turned aside

So in this moment
I must confess
And in this confession
I must speak clearly

When I am with you
I can let go my fear
With your hand at my back
I can bravely enter life’s battles

So in those moments
When trials weight
Lays heavy on my shoulders
Drags my heart into the depths

It’s at these times
Your spirit confesses for me
Before the eternal throne
And I am defended

And I am reminded then
That though I am weak
In this frame of water and bone
I’m made strong by your indwelling

So I stand here now
On this valley floor
And though I do not look back
I can still recall the altars

The stones laid out
In loving care placed
To remember all you've done
And to recall your faithfulness

So my spirit looks forward
With thankful altars behind
To a future rising now
Over misty heights yet unseen

The spark of hope kindling
And fanning into flame
My heart warms with peace
And my mind dares new dreams

And like so many of you
I set one foot before the other
Take in this gift of breath
And start on a new path

Each step powered with hope
Strengthened by eternal promises
My eyes are fixed upon our Savior
The one in whom I still believe